Rainbow Light

When you feel lost in the rain, hold on to your faith and believe in yourself. Perserverance holds the key to something more beautiful after the struggle you have endured.

Friday, February 24, 2006

First prac of the year.

Damn. I've been sneezing pretty much non-stop for the past hour. Don't know why these few days I feel like I'm going to come down with flu at night, but by morning it's gone. Not that I have anything to complain about its disappearance. Been eating medicine on and off but that can't continue like this? Strange. I think I'm eating pretty well and sleeping the same number of hours back in Singapore too.

Had my first practical class of the year, and it happens to be a Small Animal Medicine rotation for me and some other students. All the students in the 4th year are split into small groups of ~10 and put through different practical components through a rotation system. Anyway, so we put on our light blue clinical coat (reminded me of my secondary sch uniform) and equipped ourselves with stethoscope, penlight, thermometer, pen and stopwatch, and off we went. Considering it's our first Small Animal prac, it was introductory as expected, and then some of us went into a small conference room to talk about cases. Though we had a very nice vet/lecturer conducting the talk, overall it was still quite like a blow in the face. We jumped straight into discussing some clinical case examples, and everything that we ought to have learnt but have forgotten stings. Especially when he suddenly requested for us to each give a possible cause of polydipsia/polyuria. How the hell do I remember? For the umpteenth time this week, I wish I had read more extensively.

Following an hour of that, we then proceeded to a room to palpate the hospital greyhounds. These were very docile gentle creatures, and they were standing there patiently for us to prod them all over and manoveur their body parts around. Anyway, a lady vet then went through the steps of proceeding with a normal physical examination, and basically I just can't remember them all, cuz she went through it so fast. I suppose they expect us to know these things already. The poor dogs.. each of us were just tugging at their skin here and there trying to find the lymph nodes. Somehow I feel, that perhaps everyone was just learning the skill of touching somewhere and then go "ahh.. yeah, yep, I think i feel it" with the right expression on the face to accompany that.

When u think about it.. 2 years seem pretty short. While all these skills have not been acquired yet, the general impression is that we OUGHT to have already picked up somewhere. which may be true for certain people but surely not everyone.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Unlikely paradise

My neighbourhood is huge and beautiful!! I only just realised it, after taking a jog around my house for the first time since I'm back in Perth. My original plan was to get a better idea of where my home lies in the maze of houses in this new suburb, because I don't even have a map of my neighbourhood.. yes, that is how new this area is. The road on which I'm now standing on is not even listed in the 2005 street directory. Right now I only have 2 neighbours on this road, with a few others under construction, and some up for rent. I must say, the landscape designers are good.. I found this very pretty lake in the midst of the neighbourhood and to top it off, it was at sunset when I chanced upon it... if not for the fact that I didn't want to stop jogging, and that I was worried that I would not be able to find my way home once it gets dark, I would have stood there and enjoyed the view. No highrise buildings, nothing but one to two-storey houses in the vicinity... could definitely admire the sunset. A good place to idle when you don't have a zillion articles and books sitting at home, waiting for you to read them.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Music does me good.

Today, I suddenly felt the need for music therapy. And then I found this song by Guang Liang. Somehow, he always gets to sing some songs with nice tunes and he sounds so sincere too :P. This happens to be one of them... its feel-good factor can almost rival that of 天堂... in my opinion.


歌曲:都是你

歌手: 光良

谁改变了我的世界
没有方向没有日夜
我看着天这一刻在想你
是否会对我一样思念

你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前

想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明

这是我对你爱的累积

And why do I need music therapy? Because the imaging lectures today are freaking me out. I don't know if it's because I let myself be easily influenced by everyone around me, but I find it really hard to be positive and upbeat right now. Everything seems like such a drag, and to think this is only the 3rd day of school. Silly, isn't it.

Monday, February 20, 2006

First day of school - 4th Year

First day of school, and a start to a brand new semester. Many things have changed. Although I'm sure many of us would have been prepared for the gigantic leap to the next level in terms of the workload, I cannot help but find the semester ahead a little daunting. It's not just the sudden increase in the amount of things to read up on or the long days ahead of having to sit in the same lecture hall for hours on end. Rather...it's the aspect of suddenly having to recall and apply previously learnt knowledge to the more practical tasks assigned to us. And the warning bell just goes off in the head with "uh-oh.. i can't remember much of what I've learnt in the past 3 years". There is a sense of increased responsibility for ourselves... cannot relax and sit back anymore, not unless one wants to graduate in 2 years' time with nothing but the plain bare facts of what we're being tested on. That day of going into real practice seems scarily near... and to think that after 3 years of studying, we still feel almost as incompetent as before.

But it's definitely going to be an interesting year ahead. I foresee a lot of mistakes made and insecurities in dealing with the animals themselves. But by the end of the year pple will surely have developed more confidence with the new skills picked up.

And so, it's time to work really, really hard. I tell myself I've got everything I could possibly want, and more. No more excuses not to put in my best effort in everything I do.

Music website up at www.projmusic.com - a compilation of some songs that me and my best friend created together, and only achieved through great help from some other wonderful friends :) I cannot be more grateful.