Sick and tired of avoiding the important things in life

Just how many of us can honestly say that we live our lives completely true to ourselves? I know I'm not. But I strive to be. I have come to realise it's one thing to be idealistic, but it's thousand times more difficult to be able to put your words into action. There are so many things I have yet to achieve... and when I evaluate myself from time to time, I come up against so much resistance because I'm afraid of knowing the truth. And then I wonder... do other people feel the same way? or do they simply choose to numb themselves to what's important in life and prefer not to become aware or think too deeply about certain issues?

However, I will never be in a position to judge anyone else. Nobody ever does I suppose. And I have yet to make a friend whom I deeply respect for living a life of purpose and awareness. Let me meet a monk or nun any day! At least I think they will come closest to being the people who practice what they preach, with conviction.

I don't want to be influenced by the general public sentiment anymore. I don't want to disregard my own beliefs just because they create additional obstacles. And I want to live each day knowing that I could not have done any better for myself or anyone else.

Treat yourself better by making a conscious effort to filter out any unnecessary unhealthy food to your body. Banish any selfish thoughts about other people and see all as equal. Do onto others what you would like to have done to you. Treat each individual that comes into your life as beings who each are on their own journeys learning different lessons... that is why even your enemies ought to be given compassion. Stay in a state of awareness of energy interactions among all living things on Earth be it plants, animals or human beings... and be conscious of the fact that every action u take, every decision you make, and even every thought you project, has an effect on the world out there. So take the time to live a life with no regrets, letting go of all fear, and trusting that everything you ever want and need will be provided in the right place and time.

I wish I will be able to lead a meaningful life that is of certain impact on others, and not a comfort-based life of luxury-seeking.....