Fears in a dream

After my discussion with Wy on the vividity of dreams and what it could possibly mean, I encountered a very realistic one myself last night. I've been having adventurous dreams and this one was no exception. It was quite a long dream but I could only remember certain parts of it ( even though i scrambled out of bed and immediately jotted it down ).

I found myself entering a tunnel with another girl, who seems familiar, and is a friend, but I cannot recall who it reminded me of, now. The tunnel was dark and encompassed a flowing stream within. We decided to each grab hold of something in order to float along with the current. Problem was, we didn't expect to encounter crocodiles.. and the crocs were very vivid, and we were frightened. I kept shifting my legs so that they won't dangle into the water and catch their attention. We floated past many crocodiles and at the end of the stream, landed in a heap in front of a person, from whom we apparently are escaping from. Horrors of horrors. We ran wildly away from the person and out into sunshine...

In the next part of the dream, I found myself in school. the girl friend who was in the tunnel with me didn't go to school that day. I started being picked on by the lecturer/principal.. Apparently my friend told on me, and since the tunnel incident was illegal, I was in a lot of trouble. The girl had told her mother who subsequently told the principal that it was my fault and that I had dragged her into it. In front of the whole class, the lecturer asked me a very simple question regarding the subject we were studying, and I couldn't answer it. Based on that as an excuse, she failed me in the unit, and because vet students are not allowed to fail any unit at all, I was kicked out of the vet course at Murdoch. I went home, feeling very sad but naturally kept to myself while my family busied themselves with their activities. But they knew. We got down to sitting around in my bedroom, where papa suggested moving to Eastern australia and start anew, and my second sister was very excited because she liked that idea. But I adamantly refused, as I didn't want to start over Yet Again. The reason why I was so upset was because I didn't know how to face anyone who found out that I had to change school more than twice.. suddenly a cockroach started flying around in the room, a big fat juicy one. Papa tried to catch it but it just kept flying, flying......

This dream is very reflective of my current fears, I suppose. Much as I enjoy my course now, I am worried that I may yet, again, find out that it is not right for me. I guess I'm petrified even at the slightest possibility or the thought of it. I'm worried that I might fail even the re-test for the animal handling test at the end of the semester... if not this semester, what about the subsequent ones where it just gets more difficult? It has taken a dream to make me realise that I'm more afraid of the issue than I would admit. I know it's pure stupidity to let the past affect my outlook on future prospects, but I need to address the underlying fears head on....